Hi long time no see I know once again.

Things here are a tad bit more stable now. For the last six months I dropped off the map as my old car broke down several times (that cost a lot of $$$), new living accommodations, I also had a root canal done (more $$$ yay for no insurance), personal drama, and the purchase of a newer car. I have gone through a couple of jobs and I now work for GAME CRAZY…… Oh and I also lost my phone including all my old contacts…..so if I have not called you in a while I AM SOOOO SORRY!!!! It is only because I lost your # not because I forgot you. Sooooooo…..This last year was a doozie on me and this year started off quite the same.

I still have not made anything worth posting, I do not know what is wrong with me but I hope someone here may know what this is. Have you ever been to a point when you can't draw not even one single doodle and that even looking at any art makes you so envious (even if you can create something just as good), sad ,or nauseous and you just feel no urge to draw not even a faint spark of creativity. I have been this way for a total of almost three years now, and I do not know how to break it.

I keep thinking that if I just try I will break it but I fail time and time again. I would hate to see my stuff go to waste but I am not exactly the one to tout that my stuff is the best in the world. Although I have people tell me that my work is great I just don't feel it. I think I have just let too many things get to me in the past few years and I think I have far to little faith in myself.

I don’t even show any of my work to any of my peers that know me now, nor do I feel the need to let them know I can draw.

This was not a journal of pity but this is just a nagging question I have been stewing over, HAS ANYONE EVER FELT LIKE THIS BEFORE?